May Theme: WHEN YOU'RE GOING THROUGH HELL...
- Winston Churchill
When I think about tough times I've had as a writer, they often have to do with 1) feeling like I don't have enough time, or, when waiting and waiting and waiting, too much time, 2) struggling to let go of things beyond my control and 3) feeling overwhelmed when I am unable to make the words on the page match the vision in my head.
I'm experiencing #3 right now. I've been working on this book for two and a half years. It's gone through so so many incarnations, and I still lovelovelove the concept, but just haven't gotten the manuscript to the place it needs to be.
So many times I've wanted to give up. And, you know, sometimes giving up is a way to move on. But I know in my heart, this is not one of those times. I've got to tell this story. And in order to do that, I need to give myself time to grow into it.
So I'm trudging through. Taking tiny steps. Meditating. Napping. Lunching outside. Looking at the sky. Quilting. Going for a swim. Talking to 3 year olds. Talking to 93 year olds. Watching ants. Reading. Being very still. Listening.
The key for me is to DO. No wallowing allowed. Keep moving forward. And eventually, eventually I will find myself on the other side.
*photo courtesy of my amazingly talented baby brother MicaJon Dykes.